god_sandal

mary responded to two of my posts and i thought they were the same but i hadnt done realized that they were both titled "yoyoyoyo" except one was titled "yoyoyoyoooo" HA IT WAS SO FUNNY BUT ONLY FOR LESS THAN A QUICK SEC

anyway
so life is going by weirdly as normal
people suck
people change
people exist
people are awesome
people dont stay in touch
people can somehow stay in touch with you after all this time

I GUESS ITS JUST SUPPOSED TO BE LIKE THIS

i want to be nice to everyone but you know what? fuck you michael pollet you're a bastard all i ever did was nice things dude. i stood up for you so much and you have to be a fucking dick to me well next time i see you i dont fucking care watch your ass. i dont care what happens to me as long as you fucking hate yourself and rot in your shitty as horrible so called life you dont deserve half of the shit you get in life and youre so fucking ungrateful FUCK YOU

ok that was unexpected i just was not going to say that but it slipped. and you know what i hope he reads this but i guess he cant read this since he doesnt know about this
even if i told him he probably wouldnt look

but all those people lines wasnt about him even it was supposed to be about people in general like how i used to know people, no one in particular, just everyone.

he was a dick to elissah for no reason, she has not changed that much, he has. no one likes him anymore anyway
HE GOES TO GAY BARS EVERY WEEK WITH HIS GF AND ANOTHER GAY DUDE HOW IS HE NOT GAY HE SHOULD JUST ADMIT IT EVERYTHING WOULD BE EASIER
god dude, kyle may have messed up a few times but he is still a good person deep down
andrew is cool he is funny, at least he can admit things, but michael? nah he is a bitch.

WHY do i keep typing about this dude
because i used to think he was my friend.
i have been so nice to everyone i have known
i know its a fucking selfish thing to say, it makes me sound stuck up
but ive fucking had it
i have HAD IT
people use me so much ive been a fucking saint compared to everyone i know
but i dont care i dont care i care not what they do i dont want then to know
they would realize it if it really mattered.

shit
ok
im done expressing myself.
ok one more
well ive just had it with people being mean to me even though i havent done anything to them, using me even though all ive done is good to them, ignoring me even though all i have done was be a friend to them.
its all good.
i have found a few of the people who i know are truly friends, and the ones that are truly selfish.
i still give them a second chance to change their ways. ive given plenty of second chances
i look on the bright side of things
hell michael might even have a second chance (11th chance) all he has to do is two things: admit he is gay, admit he has changed. then i could be friends with him. no wait, if those two dont happen, then id have to knock the fuck out of him, then i would be able to be on talking terms with him. and it just sucks because hannah is really cool and he smothers her and i dont want to be near him and i wish hannah could hang out with us more she is fun

ok
NOW
for real this time im done
that felt good

so yea im not bad
aced the hell outta that calc 2 test
and now for this computer program...
oi.. its goin to suck badly but i hope i complete it!

pluplupluplu.blogspot.com
thats my other blog i like how i can do whatever the hell i want with it with practically no restrictions! its like having my own website...

but yea so im going back to go do this program
mary, have a nice night :P

i hate this
why do i gotta be such a lil baby
i saw paranormal activity i knew it was fake the whole time why does it still creep me out???///
im so upset that i cant sleep peacefully whenever i am at home
it is really easy to fall asleep at LSU but for some reason when im trying to go to sleep in new orleans it;s harder.....................................
i guess im paranoid
but of what?
im not scared of death
im only scared of hurting everyone around me
i would hurt people that care for me if i die, and i would hurt people that care for me if i get possessed. but i know that you have to be accepting and wanting to talk to dead people to get possessed. i dont want to talk to them though i want them to go on doing their thing and i'll do mine
i dont know why this actually creeps me out
i dont have anything to be afraid of
am i being serious right now? am i actually doing this
what the hell is wrong with me
im a child again
yey... -___-

i'm so excited today :DDDDDDDDDD

im tired as hell
i hate them all
you know, the usual ones that i hate
the only people in this world i think ive used the word hate on and actually meant it.
they have no life they act as though they are fine i want to fuck them over i want to egg all their cars i want to slash all their tires i want to tell them how horrible they are
i dont even know why i care so much
it will all be better once high school is over
they will go on leading their miserable lives, while i will go on leading my fantastic life.
i just, i guess deep down i wish i could change them into good people... they used to be fun to hang around with. i got too attached i guess.
whatever.
people are fucking rotten.
selfish fucking bastards

MY BABY WISSUH IS A CUTIE!!

soooooooooooooo i guess i found something to talk about
a small dilemma
sort of a dilemma i guess you could call it that.

well so we ve been dating for 16 months.
its been amazing
thereve been a couple ups and downs, mostly from just stupid things too
arguing over little things, misunderstandings, you know, normal relationship stuff.
except i think we're different.
from when we first started dating i promised her i would like to wait at least two years.
before we
...
consummated our love?
yea so uhm anyway.
for a while she's been kind of wanting to.
because the other stuff is like a tease and you want to do everything to get a real feel and stuff you know what i mean
because before we ever did stuff like that, she and i both never wanted to, but you know, when she realized how it felt and all she thought about how the other thing might be better.
so did i
i still do
all the time
she thinks about it a lot
i think about it a lot
but i promised her. two years.
so this way, we will have been dating for 2 years, she'll be 18, i'll be 20, it will be better. sometimes i tell people its because i dont want to get screwed over. that could be a possible reason but i really trust her.
i dont want some girl to take it from me, and then her leave me. i want to have my first and stay with that girl forever.
so this will happen for me and wissuh
i hope
and i think it would be nice to wait for the two years but we've both constantly been wanting to and i have hats in the drawer and she has to be on the pill because she is on accutane and its just so tempting. its insanely tempting. how do we resist so well
i also dont want to hurt her
dude to do that to a girl she has to get hurt so bad. unless of course she has like prepared it or something but no, elissah doesnt do that. i dont want to hurt her i wish it wouldnt hurt her so much; and people say it hurts for the girl for the first few times too, not just the first. so like i guess the 4th time is supposed to start being good for her. dude that fucking sucks. god
why did i even type all this out?
i kind of feel better by typing it. it makes me feel like i can get it out to someone or something like that
peace love and boner shakin

its supposed to be our anniversary.
kind of, not a significant year just an inbetween month thing

ive done all this, half the times i go through mega fits like this she never knows about it
ever.
i keep it inside because it makes me feel stronger, i get it out eventually i just dont want to make her upset
should i just tell her everything?
well i feel like i need to be more open about my feelings and frustrations
but i cant do that right away, because then we'll get into a fight
i do not like fighting. it doesnt help anything because the words that are said are words of anger. thats why i should wait to say anything like this until we are both calm and not just say them on the spot
ok i got this
damnit i dont like sundays tomorows gonna suck too

i looked at pictures of us while she was in the other room and i thought of what if i never existed? it would be her with another guy in those pictures, i almost started crying right then and there, it made me realize how much i care for her.
But lately, ive wondered, does she really care that much about me?
deep down i know she does, i dont doubt it, she shows it sometimes, but a lot of times i get the feeling that i'm neglected.
I do everything i can for her, and a lot of times she wants more, what can i do?
Tonight was a nice example. The whole day actually. I dont even feel like writing it out anymore but she wanted a biig stuffed animal and i couldnt win it, it isnt that fucking easy god damn and she knew that so i just tried 3 times on two different things i got so close but i wasnt going to waste any more money. she kept saying the whole night how she wanted a big dog stuffed animal like god damn im sorry i couldnt win it, i brought you for sushi like i do nearly every other god damn week dude wtf. i do so much for you, you made me cupcakes, that is nice i like when you do little things like that, i just wish you could be more appreciative of me sometimes, it would be a splendid way to repay me. like also at gretna fest you kept complaining because you were soooooooooooooo bored. fuck i'm sorry im so boring to you im sorry we didnt get to see all of your cool ass fucking friends who are fucking ass holes. all my friends that ive ever had in my whole life werent that fucking mean to me dude. fuck all your friends they are ass holes. dont even deal with their shit how about we try new people its so god damn easy.
i hate your friends i hate them i hate your fucking friends
anyway. now that that frustration is out...
so back to what i was saying.
if we are somewhere like that and we have nothing to do and we cant leave because we have to wait like we had to wait for brooke, then yeah dont sit there and complain at how booored you are, and dont fucking shut me down when im trying to talk about something, yea i was talking about the year before when we got in our first tiny argument (even though we didnt argue because you assumed i was talking about something else and you wouldnt talk to me.) even though i was talking about that, at least i was talking about something, instead of sitting there saying how bored i am
you know youre becoming a lot like emily now, except for the whole wanting to have sex a lot stuff she's a hone dog, but youre always pessimistic now and i try to cheer you up but you hate me for it you talk about being bored somewhere when youre with someone you talk about hatred you complain and complain. and i know im sorry. its not like youre going to read this anyway so i dont fucking care im saying how i feel. i know theyre stupid and worth complaining about, but god damn make the best of it. i dont exactly lead the best life, but i dont sit and complain about it all the time.
you dont even know anything that i do anymore.
you dont even care
i couldve gone anywhere friday night you never asked
i started to tell you something i did and you immediately shut me down. that was what hurt the most. just because it had something to do with skating? im sorry. its part of my life. it really irritates me that you hate skateboarding so much
i fucking love you but this is some real shit that we need to talk about without you fucking flipping out like you always do. if you mention something to me i immedately talk about it i dont throw a hissy fit and get all mad and shit.
what ever why do i even bother typing this no one reads this
but i guess thats a good thing
i get my frustrations out to somewhere
and i can go back and look when i want
like a diary

cant figure how to figure this out
i wish i could just immediately do it easily but it takes time and i have so much work to do!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO MUCH IS DUE ALL AT ONCE
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck i hope i can get it god damnit omgomgomgomgomg shittttttttttttt

why the fuck does it keep saying "normplo has added you as a friend"
it's been doing that since the dawn of time and i dont know who that is or if its even a person
god
damn
it
ha
so anyways...

the new muse album is good it isnt as gay as i thought it would be,
but the arctic monkeys new album isnt that great but not horrible

well
god
god fucking damn
frustration anger guiltiness sadness depression oily disappointed irritated WTF shitted on.
thats about how i feel
i dont know how to explain it.
are you trying to just annoy the piss out of me?
i hate to sound like a douche bag but what's with the nagging?
i said one mean thing but hey it's true
everyone thinks you have me wrapped around your finger and i'm starting to believe them.
i would do anything for you. i like to make things easy for you and i like doing things for you as long as those things make you happy. but its gotten to the point where enough is enough. i mean i still dont mind it except when you ask so much, and im still doing these things but then theres other things to complain about too. its just been so bad in recent months. i dont know what to do.
i dont know if you're just testing me or something its weird its annoying
in the past i always get down on myself even though i believed it wasnt my fault and you just dump more on me, but this time im not backing down. im standing my ground, i didnt do anything wrong this time. if i say mean things its because i feel like youre starting to get the upper hand and whenever i show that im trying to do things my way you get all upset; its irritating.
"once you get an iPod you can listen to what you want"
"hey whyd you skip that song"
"i just want to listen to that one song"
blahblabhalbhalha but of course there's excuses i dont even care
its not like you're ever going to read this
i'm pretty sure maybe marys the only one that would read this because she has one of this too damn i needa go lurk hers in a minute, but she probably wont even read this or at least not the whole thing because i type stupid ridiculous long ass entries. its just how i have to express myself, i cant type short mysterious blogs about important events i need to ramble on to make myself feel a little better
i feel like shit
i feel like absolute shit
i dont want to do anything i just want to do my homework and go to school i dont want to see cj i dont want to hear his shit i dont want to skate i dont want to play games i dont want to go on the computer i dont want to sleep i dont want to speak to anyone i just want to take away my emotions and do what i need to
fuck this
fuck this whole situation
fuck problems
fuck feelings.
this is just too disappointing for you to get so upset about something ridiculously stupid like that, and for us to actually argue about it. what ever. it probably is the birth control + acutane that has you in mood swings. probably the birth control alone causes you to have these random mood swings, you're upset with me every other day.
god damnit
what am i to do
what am i supposed to do tomorrow once i wake up
i dont want to do anything
am i supposed to just call you and say hey wanna hang out
or am i supposed to call you and say hey wtf
or call you and say uhm u ok?
god
i almost wish i could believe in god. then i could have someone to talk to or at least pray and stuff. i cant anymore. i dont know what it is there is something set in me. maybe im not human
maybe i am really controlled by some further being
i feel so horrible right now i need someone to help me
i need someone to talk to
i have no one to talk to
i want to die right now
i hate this so much
i hate this i hate myself i hate this stupid world of shitty selfish humans
i hate these emotions why wont they go away for a little while why cant i control them
fuck this i hope i can just fall asleep i want to sleep all day tomorrow
and i get to do awesoem homework
but then at least my effort will be appreciated

my bby wissuh

college seems to be goin good so far
its just frustrating having cj here sort of.
i wish he just had his own place
because he constantly asks me where places are and shit and he's always here and its like living in a dorm all over again he's dependent on me
sigh.

maybe i was wrong about everything before.
but i still wasnt in some way
i was just defending elissah. she didnt do anything wrong.

i kind of want to save that myspace bulletin on here i might do that

but i dont care
i'm feeling really good today.
this weekend was amazing i had so much fun oh my god
there were a couple downs but they all turned out to be great success
so the whole michael thing is going to be weird for a while
i know he doesnt like elissah he hasnt liked elissah for a long time and elissah hasnt liked him for a long time
What do i do in this situation?
i didnt want to hang out with him sometims because of how mean he had been to her, i didnt think about it but that is pretty much how it was, also his drinking bothered me a lot he was so IMMATURE about it but that shouldnt have stopped me from hanging out with him, ugh whatever. i'm just gonna try to hang out with him some day soon i guess but i dont know how to do thissssssssssssssssssss fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
ok here goes nothing



literally.

ulcers.

I posted this on MuseLive just now:

"...


and today was the worst day in a long time from one SMALL problem that lead to a gigantic monstrous disastrous pissed off day, i was so pissed, that's how pissed off i was.
So the story goes...
I wake up, i'm doing fine i decide "ooh! let me go turn on my computer and plug in my iPod so it can scrobble the plays so that my last.fm gets updated and then i'll listen to some music and play some games on the computer" i was excited this felt like such a good thing to do.
So, i do this i get to plugging in my iPod when it won't scrobble the songs, meh no big deal it only works half the time anyway who cares right, so then i decided i havent listened to muse in a while so i double clicked KoC to play from my iPod but also from iTunes because it was plugged in (this is part of the story wait) and then as it's about to finish i decided instead of listening to Glorious next, i would listen to Hysteria. but i wanted to hear the nice interlude before Hysteria came on, so as Glorious is starting i click on Interlude, track number 7 on Absolution, yeah, so itunes starts to slow up no big deal it happens on occasion, and then i double clicked it when it went back to normal, glorious is playing and skipping a lot then iTunes freezes up and this goes on for 20 minutes.
yeah, i was listening to glorious for 20 MINUTES because it would play like 3 seconds and then freeze, well i was in the middle of some stupid puzzle game online and i figured it would unfreeze. nope.
so my iPods plugged in i decide well i'll close out iTunes then eject my iPod with the taskbar thing in the bottom right corner (i have vista), so i closed iTunes program not responding blah blah blah, after itunes was finsihed and gone, then i clicked the little symbol in the bottom right corner to stop the iPod and Safely Remove Hardware, it tells me the ipod is in use and it can't. so then i'm like uhh okay i'll wait a couple minutes, ...
after 1 minute of waiting blue screen pops up saying "Oh ian i hate you i hope you die the computer is automatically restarting in 5 seconds if you have never seen this screen shitshitblahblahblah ... and... programs... processes..." whatever it automatically restarted my computer.
and THEN
my computer restarts so it's all good everything works fine itunes works just fine.
Oh why dont i try and scrobble my iPod again?
GREAT IDEA
not
so i plug in my iPod.
Sweet it scrobbled my plays!
okay now i really still want to listen to hysteria and the interlude right before it too
well so i went to go click it and whaddya know?! IT FREEZES ITUNES AGAIN
so i assumed whenever i click interlude (and i didnt even double click it this time) that it would freeze itunes, BUT only when it is selected from my iPod and only when the iPod is plugged in to the computer, before this i used to listen to all of absolution just fine from my ipod itself and from the computer itself. So then i had to bring my sister somewhere (oh and i tried ejecting it no luck blah blah another restart and another plug in but that time my iPod froze and i had to reset that happened twice) and then i had to bring my sister to her practice and i tried to see if i could listen to it on my ipod while it isnt plugged in since it used to work just fine, well no.. it said fuck you again
and i click on it and it skips each song and goes to ruled by secrecy which is the only song that played. wow...
then i tried to play it from the beginning, same thing. ruled by secrecy was the only one that worked... so i was really pissed. and also my Black Moth Super Rainbow album works fine on my computer and itunes and it works fine when my ipod is plugged in and on itunes it works there but not when the ipod by itself (it isnt on a dock it's plugged into the charger thing for the car radio so it isnt like a dock which has control over skipping songs) oh and another side note, the version of new born i had kept skipping at 3:06 every single time. ok no more side notes back to my worthless pathetic story:
so i get home after i dropped her off, i firstly updated iTunes from 8.0.something to 8.2.somethingthenewestone and then i deal with ipod plug in freeze a couple times (this also lead to the me being pissed off) then it finally works so i try to just delete all the songs off my ipod and put them back on this was successful for the Black Moth Super Rainbow album (which still didnt work after) but when i go to highlight the muse songs, i was succesful in deleting some of them (i only selected thoughts of a dying athiest down to TiRo for some reason..) but it froze again when i was selecting Apocalypse Please,
so i was pissed i threw my hands up in disgust and left i went to pick up my girlfriend at this time she was like calm down lets just take all the songs directly from the CDs again i was like good idea so we did that at her house and on her iTunes it was easy to just delete the last three songs off absolution. then i ripped the CD to her copmuter and put it on my iPod and that worked fine.


This was a load of bullshit. it took me a whole day goin through all of this. i had a Zen mp3 device a few years ago it was crappy but hey it never froze. hey it never skipped a single song halfway through and that was also when i used limewire to download songs,
i still have yet to put the new version of new born i downloaded to see if it doesnt skip but i'm sure it won't. i read through so many apple forums today about songs being corrupt and whatnot. and alot of the iPod problems are easier to solve if you're iPod is synced apparently, but mine isn't i have a lot more songs on my ipod than on my computer, i borrowed from friends
dude did i really just type out all of that
wow, i'm sorry. i just really needed to get that off my chest
god, i hate frustrating days. i hate how once itunes 8 came out a bunch of songs decide they want to skip half way through, i've only noticed it for a few songs so far, i just dont get it. it's lame. apple completely ignored the fact that this happened and hasnt made any notification that they want to fix this. it isn't just me that this happens to. it happens to people who don't pirate any music too
i just hate that it can't be perfect
there has to be someone else who has problems with iTunes and iPods
or i'm just the weirdo who freaks out over nothing. which yes. that's pretty much what happened
but whatever you know i dont care, when i got home my ipod froze again when i plugged it in reset reset i mean that was about 5 minutes before i started typing this. damn dude it's almost 3 AM there's something about me typing long, tedious posts at 3 AM i dont know what it is
i'm going to stop now




"

im finnta go get a new phone
i wanted the alias 2 but it cost 150 bucks so im getting the alias it's only 20 bucks oh well i'll have to deal with it itll be fine itll be cool itll be all goooddd I HOEP i hope they dont force me to get the number 2 because i wont have enough money
well i have enough mooney but i really need to save money i need to conserve my money for when i really need it ok
ok.

taylor is a fucking bitch
michael is a fucking pussy
caitlin is a bitch too
what ever happened to hannah? is taylor really controlling her?
hannah is still fun to hang out with but when it comes to doing something shes always with one of them. and it ends up with plans falling through.
me elissah sam and hannah should double date more that was fun

why would you want to ditch someone on her birthday?
at least TRY to make her feel better
you've ripped her heart out her chest and her confidence as well
i wish you would fucking moving to beverly hills. still. you piece of shit.
yeah of course you have your excuses, you ask elissah how she feels and she tells you how she FEELS and you fucking go and yell at her and tell her it's all her fault! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU!? god damn you fat whore go suck some more cock in slidell you piece of shit i'm tired of you i wish elissah didnt ever have to deal with your shit maybe she would be happier now!
she is a nice girl and you don't deserve to be friends with someone who is so kind and forgiving and rational --(like you said, bitch) -- and elissah is perfect and she deserves so much better. i wish you would stay away from her i wish you would move to slidell at least maybe that would keep you away longer.

as for michael, he is just stuck to alcohol and he isnt the same anymore. i first noticed it about.. the very second time he fucking drank. but it wasn't too bad until i made a song i thought was boomin and he never comments on it and i tell him 500 things and he never talks back anymore he isn't fun anymore. he didnt even say anything to elissah and he didnt tell her happy birthday. he has more fun with his fake group of friends that he fakes being nice to so he can get drunk with them. fucking loser. i want to beat the fuck out of him but it would feel like beating up a girl, because he is a homosexual and he's in denial; another reason why he drinks. he said like 3 words to me at the table and gave me a weird fucking look. i almost want to slash all his tires, key the fuck out of his car, and put a safety pin in his bed and make it stand upright with magnets so it pokes him when he lays down ha. no but seriously he better watch out or go away. i thought i was friends with him, but i guess not. he's not my homie. he isn't my friend. he isn't a mack daddy anymore. he's a bitch and it'll stay that way.

This is what happens when you make friends wtih people who are still in high school. they are fucking immature and they are in a stage where they are changing. and it sucks. i dont really care, because most people aren't so immature and babies who get everything in life.
and caitlin; she doesnt drive anywhere and she is just a stupid fucking dominican girl who bitches about everything. i don't really mind hanging out with her sometimes she is just really unreliable and i don't consider her a close friend. she is two faced as well. as well as the rest of them. fuck heads.

i dont know about hannah... she honestly could have tried harder to make elissah happy. she didnt have to go with taylor... i couldve driven her home. she couldve gone to the zoo with sam. she couldve told taylor to fuck off. she doesn't have to listen to taylor just because she is sorry for her. i feel like she actually likes taylor though... it's confusing dude. i dont know. hannah is fun to hang out with and all but i just hate the fact that she takes taylors side for irrational arguments that taylor makes.
because really... everything elissah says to taylor, taylor just throws it back in her face and makes it so that absolutely nothing is taylors fault. nothing. she can't even admit that she went to subway before the zoo. she has to lie and say that the electricity went out in her neighborhood and hte gates wouldnt open. because thats bullshit and if it were true she would have told elissah before elissah had to ask. she needs to learn how to make excuses she needs to learn how to be nice. she has two fucking friends. TWO. michael doesnt even like her. caitlin and hannah are her little sidekicks and the only people who can be considered her friends. you know i sometimes feel really sorry for her, but all that turns into hatred when she says the things that she says to elissah. especially when it's elissah's birthday and we've planned to all hang out and elissah is a little disappointed that everyone had to all of a sudden leave except for two people + boyfriends. and that some of those people plan to get hibachi without even letting elissah know. on her BIRTHDAY. they couldve just said "hey elissah wanna come get hibachi with us?" but nah they want to go alone and ditch out. so elissah just feels a little upset about that and so taylors response to this is "it's your fault, i try so hard and i dont know what to do anymore you're always disappointed, you need to be better at this. you need to be the proactive protagonist..." like really? you're going to say that and pin it all on her? what the fuck is WRONG with you? do you have a heart? can't you at least say "aw i'm sorry i wish you would have a better birthday" THATS ALL YOU HAD TO SAY! you didnt even have to mean it, you couldve pretended to be nice and just try to make her feel better on her birthday you know. she wasnt even pinning her disappointment on you. she was just telling you how she felt. but you have to throw it in her face. you have no heart. you have no soul. you have blood made of cane's sauce. you are a whore. you are a filthy fucking whore. you don't deserve a nice friend like elissah who actually cares about her friends. if you were really her friend you would have at least tried to check up on her every once in a while. you wouldve asked her how she was feeling in the past, you wouldve talked to her about things, you wouldve called her to hang out, regardless of whether or not she was with me at the time, because even if she was with me that day, you could make plans for hte next day. i can't believe you used a stupid excuse like that. you have been so mean to her, you broke her heart in such a way that she can never look at you the same again. you have turned into the devil, you are the Antichrist. you hurt her so much, and you don't understand what you have done. People aren't suppose to cry that much on their birthday. friends are supposed to attempt to make their friends feel special on their birthday. not ditch them and go get drunk. you fucking piece of shit. michael caitlin and hannah all count in on that last part. you shouldve gone to see elissah. you were with her for 5 minutes michael. as for the taylor trinity, you guys were there for like 20 minutes at the zoo and then for the time at the yougurt place, which you just didnt talk to elissah, and then you dropped off the fruit sushi thing hannah made and then left because "oh taylor has been sick and now she doesnt feel good" why does everyone have to leave when taylor leaves? Yeah shut the fuck up. you had been planning to go to get drunk that whole time so if you have an excuse it's all bull shit. you're all guilty. and selfish. selfish as fuck. go do drugs and hurt yourself and stop hurting elissah.